'Cuz nobody owns anything and everyone is free -Jack Johnson

I made a pledge this summer that I was only going to give and receive handmade gifts from now on ( because i am disgusted, as im sure many of you are, at how Christmas has become a consumer crazy holiday and depresses me). Anywhooo, my two best friends birthday are only days apart and I went to Michaels and picked up some supplies and made these two things for them!


I just bought a regular wooden mirror and paper mached some neat-design paper on it. Then i traced the mirror onto black construction paper and free-hand stenciled some leaf/flora/nature patterns. Then i glued the stencil ontop and used electrical tape to cover up any poking paper or wood!



Carpe Diem insperational cork board. I used the same patterned paper and glued it on the cork. Then i drew little pictures that remind me of my friend. I chose the phrase Carpe Diem and the two quotes on there:
Serious trouble beats serious boredom - dangerous lives of the alter boys
Let us so live that when we come to die even the under taker will be sorry - Mark Twain
Because my friend is in University right now and i feel like she's always so busy with school and work, and this is just a reminder to do something memorable and fantastic each day.
I went to my local Home Hardware and picked up some carpenter tacks ( theyre longer and stonger) with a cool design.
( oh and i know the paper is uneven, i added ribbon to the boarder afterwards)

All religion, my friend, is simply evolved out of fraud, fear, greed, imagination, and poetry - poe

Last Night/This Mornings DREAM:
I've already told close family and friends that i am pregnant. I'm fine with it, and everyone else seems to me. I actually seem to find it humorous. But I am sitting at a dinner table with one of Josh's VERY Catholic relative ( she only exists in this dream ) and we are having an average conversation then I am bored and she starts asking me about the baby and this is what i collectively say, " Nope, not going to get the baby baptized- i mean, i could just wash him in the tub, same thing ( she is disgruntled )... Nah, I decided to keep it because I don't have enough money to have an abortion, if i did i would've just cut the little guy out ( I'm just saying this to get a reaction, and in my dream she's grasping the front-seem of her dainty blouse)... and you know, if he ends up getting sick I have no problem with Euthanasia!" She gasps, shakes her head and huff-puffs away. I laugh and rub my belly feeling accomplished and proud.

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Is it sad that money makes me happy? Superficial? It's not the actual fact that I have money. It's that it means I'm closer to AUSTRALIA. I'm 3/5ths the way there, and it's all i can think about.
I hate the thought of going to work, but when i'm there it's exhilarating and challenging to have three tables of 8-12 at once. At times I look like a mad rabbit dashing from kitchen - computer - table - bar - bathroom ( because my bladder is pea sized ). That's what work was like last night for only a few hours, then the Pub became a desolate desert bar with the same faces from the nights and nights before.
There's times when i fantasize about ripping off my apron and storming out the front due to a shitty-tipper or like last night. Two 'high school'-self conscious-girls ( not women ) whispered and rolled their eyes as i approached their table, and as soon as i turned my back they giggled as if we were in grade 7 again. Young women are so catty and exude low self esteem; defensive and harsh. I'd take grabby, slutty men too old for me over these females in ostentatious style.

I'm looking for another job, preferably something in the office. Rachel is looking in to getting her mom to find me a job at Stantec. I'm going to look online too, but it's never failed to disappoint me yet! I need all this money because I just realized I can't put ALL my income into savings, Christmas is coming and even though i'm not buying people anything ( because this year i am fully disgusted by Christmas consumerism and how materialistic, artificial, and full of crap this 'christian holiday' has become) but i still need supplies.

I'm looking forward to the future and independence